Becuase Jeff is no loger responding to my email, I figure I will have to start talking to myslef again. And because I have no life I have noone left to tag.
1) I love coffee in the morning
2) I seem to have a strange need for more education so I have decided to work on another masters degree. This one a Masters in Public Administration.
3)I drive 2.3 miles to work ever day in a worn out car that CHIPS' says is worth enough that I need to pay myown insurance premiums.
4) I prefer the writings of Paul to those of CS Lweis
5) I have a Cathaoula Bulldog puppy that is cute and nippy.
6) I like to read but get bored with fiction quickly
7) I have a prepurchased ticket to pick up the new Harry Potter book. But I am too old to do it at Midnight.
8) I don't blog much anymore.
Tuesday, July 17, 2007
Tuesday, April 17, 2007
A good stretch after a long drive
Ok I know it has been forever since I posted and there is probably no one still out there looking at this. But in case anyone happens to be around I will try to start posting again. I actually have a post I am working on that I need to finish. As far as life in general wow this job change has been a MAJOR shift in many ways. I have no tablet PC anymore and we have no internet connection at home so it has been difficult to post. I will say one thing Greg that had to HURT!!
Wednesday, January 24, 2007
A hello to our neighbor
Ok I just noticed that our neighbor and my kids favorite babysitter has been checking out this blog. Ok Jennifer you at least have to post a hello.
On other notes ARGHHHHH I am so stinking busy!! New jobs shold not require so much work. I hope to start posting again soon.
Now Jennifer get back to studying your learning entierly too much about my strange little family. :)
On other notes ARGHHHHH I am so stinking busy!! New jobs shold not require so much work. I hope to start posting again soon.
Now Jennifer get back to studying your learning entierly too much about my strange little family. :)
Saturday, January 06, 2007
Cyndi Speaks
I recently had a week to myself, a week to clean, to listen to theological CDs, to read, to think. I am changed now that I am a mother, more grown up, less selfish, and maybe a bit more accepting, but there is still plenty there besides being a full time mother. When the kiddos came back, much of this person goes on hold, for there is no time for in-depth theological or philosophical studies. But there is more time every year for the kids need me less and less. Some people think I must resent staying home with the kids, and ‘wasting’ my education. The truth is that I am so grateful that I have this precious time with them when they really want me and need me. I am glad to have as much of a hand in who they become as I can, a little helper of two of God’s great creations. Is there a nobler or more enjoyable profession than motherhood? Being entrusted with someone that God died to save is a pretty big responsibility. Truth is I love my job, though of coarse there are those times, I think can I do this anymore, can I read one more kids story? But it is good to know that there is still plenty I want to do when I have time, I have not lost myself in taking care of my kids so fully, I am simply exercising some different muscles. When I do get around to more in-depth learning and thinking again, I think my current experiences as a mother with have given depth to what I want to write. Perhaps all experiences honestly examined and thought through, are beneficial to increased wisdom.
On another note, we have a kitten, a little adolescent now who has been much improved by fixing and declawing I thought a few of you would enjoy the fact that at times his appropriate name to me is Kairo, which means joy. At other times he is definitely a Sméagol, from the Lord of the Rings. He still has no fixed name, but I think the kids are leaning towards Kikki. No idea where that one came from.
I have also been enjoying reading Roark’s blogs, but I admit that my mind is old and rusty. I have also been reading a book, Searching for An Adequate God, Edited by Pinnock, which was one of the theologians Roark related to. Between all of this, I feel quite overwhelmed to comment. Part of me thought, after reading Roark’s blog for the first time, why open up this can of worms again. I am settled in what I believe, if I don’t have a need to think about it why do so? Then I realized that I was becoming like all the old people in the pews who nod off routinely during sermons, thinking they will not miss anything because they have heard it all before. I do not want to stop growing, so I got my lazy mind up off of fiction novels only and entered once more the world of philosophy and theology. And I am so glad I did. I have more questions than before, but I am stretching, and slowly I find my ideas of God are expanding beyond what was there previously. The more we know of Him, the better we can love Him and the better we can point others to him, and help them over their misconceptions that trip them up. As with a lover, is it ever good to stop increasing knowledge and intimacy, and one can not exist without the other. Let me challenge any of our friends who are reading, slow down the TV and read some theology. I am expectantly looking for your comments on his blogs because they will encourage me and hold me accountable to staying the course.
A few days later….I am angry tonight. Angry with all the people who tell others it is pointless to think about God, angry with all those who won’t think with me, angry with those who are content with easy answers and so darned sure of their interpretations. I have been mulling over some points of open theology, process theology and fundamental and Calvinistic theology. The main ones being does human free will influence outcomes or is it all set ahead of time, and is the world set up where God can or should come in and fix problems often. My mother is a paranoid schizophrenic who has spent most of her life, even from the teen years, in institutions. I do not know how many of you have been in a mental institution, but it does not appear to be a place anyone would want to reside, and in the past it was even less so. She underwent scores of electroshock therapies. I get the impression that staff often take advantage of and are abusive to inmates who have no credible way of keeping them in check. She bounces around from case worker to case worker, institution to institution. Anyway, think of your mother or sister or daughter being stuck in such a place for their whole lives. Nothing you could do about it or to improve it. Then think does it matter to you if God preordained this as her life, or if she and those around her made choices that led to this outcome? Does it matter if God’s stepping in and performing a miracle in this case could in other ways interfere with personal freedoms or if maybe he just didn’t want to in this case? Is there anyone who wouldn’t kind of like to know these things if they were in these shoes? Then realize that even though you may not be in these shoes, there are lots of people out there who are in worse shoes, and that trite little answers or “well, I don’t see if it really makes a difference as to why God would do that?” are really answers that they need. I have to admit I would be interested to hear what comfort a Calvinist might offer me about her situation, and it would probably make me mad. But I think what makes me angrier is those who just won’t think and that rationalize this out as good. Of coarse, deep down, I suppose it is easy to focus that anger on others than to realize I am angry at myself for not being a better daughter, but that is another story.
On another note, we have a kitten, a little adolescent now who has been much improved by fixing and declawing I thought a few of you would enjoy the fact that at times his appropriate name to me is Kairo, which means joy. At other times he is definitely a Sméagol, from the Lord of the Rings. He still has no fixed name, but I think the kids are leaning towards Kikki. No idea where that one came from.
I have also been enjoying reading Roark’s blogs, but I admit that my mind is old and rusty. I have also been reading a book, Searching for An Adequate God, Edited by Pinnock, which was one of the theologians Roark related to. Between all of this, I feel quite overwhelmed to comment. Part of me thought, after reading Roark’s blog for the first time, why open up this can of worms again. I am settled in what I believe, if I don’t have a need to think about it why do so? Then I realized that I was becoming like all the old people in the pews who nod off routinely during sermons, thinking they will not miss anything because they have heard it all before. I do not want to stop growing, so I got my lazy mind up off of fiction novels only and entered once more the world of philosophy and theology. And I am so glad I did. I have more questions than before, but I am stretching, and slowly I find my ideas of God are expanding beyond what was there previously. The more we know of Him, the better we can love Him and the better we can point others to him, and help them over their misconceptions that trip them up. As with a lover, is it ever good to stop increasing knowledge and intimacy, and one can not exist without the other. Let me challenge any of our friends who are reading, slow down the TV and read some theology. I am expectantly looking for your comments on his blogs because they will encourage me and hold me accountable to staying the course.
A few days later….I am angry tonight. Angry with all the people who tell others it is pointless to think about God, angry with all those who won’t think with me, angry with those who are content with easy answers and so darned sure of their interpretations. I have been mulling over some points of open theology, process theology and fundamental and Calvinistic theology. The main ones being does human free will influence outcomes or is it all set ahead of time, and is the world set up where God can or should come in and fix problems often. My mother is a paranoid schizophrenic who has spent most of her life, even from the teen years, in institutions. I do not know how many of you have been in a mental institution, but it does not appear to be a place anyone would want to reside, and in the past it was even less so. She underwent scores of electroshock therapies. I get the impression that staff often take advantage of and are abusive to inmates who have no credible way of keeping them in check. She bounces around from case worker to case worker, institution to institution. Anyway, think of your mother or sister or daughter being stuck in such a place for their whole lives. Nothing you could do about it or to improve it. Then think does it matter to you if God preordained this as her life, or if she and those around her made choices that led to this outcome? Does it matter if God’s stepping in and performing a miracle in this case could in other ways interfere with personal freedoms or if maybe he just didn’t want to in this case? Is there anyone who wouldn’t kind of like to know these things if they were in these shoes? Then realize that even though you may not be in these shoes, there are lots of people out there who are in worse shoes, and that trite little answers or “well, I don’t see if it really makes a difference as to why God would do that?” are really answers that they need. I have to admit I would be interested to hear what comfort a Calvinist might offer me about her situation, and it would probably make me mad. But I think what makes me angrier is those who just won’t think and that rationalize this out as good. Of coarse, deep down, I suppose it is easy to focus that anger on others than to realize I am angry at myself for not being a better daughter, but that is another story.
Wednesday, January 03, 2007
A New Year needs a New Job
Well I finally got the call I have been waiting for for 3 weeks. I have been promoted to a unit supervisor position. I will now be responsible for 6 workers. Basically, I now have 3 times the work and a small stipend more pay. Thanks to everyone who has been praying!! Now you can start praying for the poor folks that have to call me boss. In that spirit I would appreciate any suggestions about ways to earn employee's trust/respect. What do you respect in a supervisor etc...
Monday, January 01, 2007
New Year Resolutions
Well there seems nothing less cheesy than to start my Blog on the New Year with some resolutions(NYR). I am not a particular big fan of NYR's i general although goal setting is a good thing even if you never achieve them.
1) I want to try to write more. I have come to believe that writing produces better thinking. So I am going to begin journaling during my daily quiet times. I will post some of those here but most will be between me and God.
2) I want to read more. I like reading but for some reason do not do enough of it. So I am going to try and read 2 books a month one fiction and one non fiction. I will post the titles on my Blog. In January I am reading "Son of a Witch" the sequal to "Wicked" It is a continuition of the Wizard of OZ story from the perspective of the orpaned child of the Wicked Witch of the West. My non fiction book is Searching For an Adequate God: A dialogue between Process and Free Will Theists. I intend to publish brief reviews of each book as I finish them.
3) No NYR list would be complete without the "I want loose weight" resolution. For the past 5 years I have significntly increase my excerise routine. I now have 5-6 hours a week of cardio exerise. However, I still LOVE to eat so my real reolution is to eat healther in 07.
1) I want to try to write more. I have come to believe that writing produces better thinking. So I am going to begin journaling during my daily quiet times. I will post some of those here but most will be between me and God.
2) I want to read more. I like reading but for some reason do not do enough of it. So I am going to try and read 2 books a month one fiction and one non fiction. I will post the titles on my Blog. In January I am reading "Son of a Witch" the sequal to "Wicked" It is a continuition of the Wizard of OZ story from the perspective of the orpaned child of the Wicked Witch of the West. My non fiction book is Searching For an Adequate God: A dialogue between Process and Free Will Theists. I intend to publish brief reviews of each book as I finish them.
3) No NYR list would be complete without the "I want loose weight" resolution. For the past 5 years I have significntly increase my excerise routine. I now have 5-6 hours a week of cardio exerise. However, I still LOVE to eat so my real reolution is to eat healther in 07.
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